Catharsis
1. Writing
Wow, I have not written in my blog in for-EVA! I figure rather than try to recap my life since May, I will just start off of where my life is now. I really have no idea who many people, if any, read this. But it is sort of a means of catharsis for me. So I wanted to write this entry on the different ways I deal with clarifying my emotions. I have found that I am extremely good at expressing thoughts and opinions with the written word. This has proven to be useful not only in school and work, but also in working through how I feel.
2. Confessions of a Shopaholic- Whoever Said Money Can’t Buy Happiness Didn’t Have a Chloé Bag
“When I was 7 most of my friends stopped believing in magic. That's when I first started. They were beautiful, they were happy. They didn't even need any money, they had magic cards.”
So anyway, “Confessions of a Shopaholic” is one of my favorite books. The first time I watched the movie I didn’t like it, but the second time it started to grow on me. In a lot of ways, I can identify with Rebecca Bloomwood. We both enjoy the finer things in life, are smarter than people give us credit for, and use shopping as an outlet. Although I don’t have her massive amounts of debt.
Just as I said writing is a means of catharsis, so is shopping. (But for good and bad things…not just the bad.) I shop to celebrate, or to make myself feel better. Recently, I was totally screwed over by someone who I thought was my friend. (This person asked me to stay in Portland for the holidays, got mad at me, wouldn’t tell me why, then decided to book a trip to fucking HAWAII!!! By that time tickets home were waaaaaaaaaay too expensive for me to go home…but this is entirely another story. I totally managed to make the best of my time in Portland, thanks so my fabulous friends!!!)
I am actually much happier without this person in my life. And in order to celebrate my newfound bliss, I had to go shopping! Duh!!I walked into Nordstrom and found the most beeeeeeeea-utiful red Chloé bag I had ever seen in my entire life. I picked it up and it felt perfect. I looked inside, and it had the precise amount of space I needed to store all of my incredibly important belongings! ;) And then...I looked at the price tag. This piece of heaven that originally retailed for over $1,000 was now only $300. How could I resist?!?! This fabulous find brought me an incredible amount of happiness. It was a symbol of all my hard work and ability to support myself. It showed me I am a strong, independent woman. And this also brought me more happiness then my friend who had repeatedly screwed me over ever did. And after the way I was treated...game over, than asshole lost! It made me realize if a bag could make me happier than a friendship, than this person was not meant to be in my life. 3. Running Whenever I have an important decision to make or something on my mind, nothing helps clear my head and come to a realization more than exercise/working out. And what does this best for me is running. I feel like I am one with the road and able to completely clear my head. It helps me focus on what I need to and ignore everything else. Yoga does the same thing. I have have been very lucky in the amazing opportunities I have had in my life. I have lived and traveled all over the world. I have successful completed programs at the most prestigious universities in the world. But I have never left at one with a city until I have gone for a run in it. You get a completely different perspective on a place after running it's streets. You learn so much- about the buildings, the people, the history. And it gives me a chance to collect my thoughts. 4. The Last Resort And if all else fails, I grab a great friend and hit one of my favorite bars! Nothing lets you vent and get things off your chest like a good friend and some alcohol! For me, the poison of choice is def tequila. Nothing makes me forget my troubles like some Patron Silver!
